Do you have a dream?
Do you pray to God to give you your dream?
Do you believe if God will give what you want?
If you do not believe in God, I think you may skip this post and come back later when I post something new. (feel free to do that)
However, I do want to post this post when I see one of my friends in my blog told me a news, that he did not get the chance to get the scholarship that he wanted.
Well, he remainds me of my self when I got refusal years ago. However, he can except it and continue his life with positive mind, a years ago, I wasn’t. I was mad at my self.
I spent a lot of time in my teenager life by doing day dreaming. I wish I were getting a scholarship after my high school and starting to travel and experience the world. I wish, I did wish I had that chance. What I did, I just pray to God that I wanted to get scholarship after I had finished my high school, and I said to God that I believed it was good for me, so please made it happened.
I applied many scholarship, because my score was really good and it got me some opportunities to apply in more than three scholarship. I got the chance to get interviewed, but unfortunately, I did not get that. Then, I said to my self that I was not a good person, so I deserve for not getting that.
I was angry to my self and I just feel bad. Because I knew for sure that would be really good for me if I got it.
But then, the question will be, “Do I know better than God?”
I was being so selfish and too proud of my self, until I did not realize that I am nothing compare to God. I am just human, I just can assume or think it is good and it is bad. I can dream about it, work hard to get it, but the final decision is on God. I have to believe that God know better than me and I have to believe that when I do hard work to get what I want, but I can not get that it is not because God hates me, it is the way how God tell me that it is not good for me.
So, yeah, I stop praying that, “I want that, I want this, I want those, please make it happen.”
Now, I pray, “Please give me and my family the best for us. If the thing that I want is bad for me and family, please make that away from us.”
It makes me become more relax and enjoy my life. Now, I am always grateful for everything that God giving to me because I believe that is good for me. The best thing is I get everything I dreamed before. As I believe now, everything that I dreamed happen on the right (or perfect, I can say that) time for me. Subhanallah…